Drive Him Out My SOUL!

Drive him out of my soul!

Let the emotions connected with him lose their control

And ONCE AND FOR ALL

I'LL BLOT OUT THE FEELINGS HE INSPIRED IN ME

SCREAM OUT BETRAYAL, BETRAYAL!

Vengeance MY Lord!

Betrayal!

WHERE ARE YOU GOD?

I KNOW YOU SEE HOW I’ve been cut, I’M HURT

So Lord ARISE AND FIGHT MY CAUSE

I AM,

Let my words go on this journey with me

Let my words cry out for me

For these eyes have shed too many tears already

Drops upon drops have flowed from my own personal red sea

Let my words mourn

For every bit of joy that has been stolen from me

Hold a lamentation until my joy returns to me

Let my words scream out for me

Express the emotions that I haven’t expressed

The one’s that I feel inside but won’t let show

For fear that they will ruin the ‘I’m a Christian who’s got it together show’ that I created

Too afraid to be weak, so man empowered

Now let me just be me before you

Send your words into my secret places

For I know that they will do me justice

THEY’LL DIG up things buried inside my wounds

BECOME the very thing that uplifts MY ANGER, PAIN, HURT AND PRESENT THEM AS MY EVIDENCE OF DEEP WOUND AND cuts received in this love war

Battered and mashed up I’ve staggered to you my lord

Been cut so deeply

So in need of healing

Hear my words and take vengeance for me!

You that will bring all bad things hidden into the light

Right now help me to bring all the pain into the light

For it will need light in order to be healed right and not permit resentment, hatred and bitterness to take control of my inside

Use everything in me to vomit out any of these feelings

For I know that you my daddy love me too much to watch me become another angry woman who nurses hurt caused by someone she thought she loved and got disappointed by… again

So please heal me

Let not my heart become harden over misery

Send in forgiveness

Send in comfort to be my nurse and watch over me

Let nothing be hidden any longer

Won’t allow this experience to destroy anything in my future

And no MY WORDS may NOT SOUND LIKE SOOTHING MUSIC TO EVERY EAR THAT

Might HEAR IT

BUT TO YOU I hope IT WILL BE WHAT IT IS

HONEST

NOT TRYING TO Disguise ANYTHING THIS TIME BEHIND THE I’M FINE nonsense

I’LL OPEN UP MY SELF TO YOU

AGAIN PRESENT MYSELF AS THE NAKED CHILD

WITH NOTHING IN THIS WORLD THAT WOULD CLOTHE ME but you

your mercy your love food

Eat the words from your comforter

SUBMIT TO him AS MY NURSE

LET Him FEED ME WITH THE WORDS THAT HE WANTS ME TO TAKE IN

He is the cure I KNOW I need

So to be free

FREE ENOUGH TO SEE THAT though WOUNDED YOU ARE FOREVER GOOD TO ME

RIGHT NOW I’M SCREAMING OUT IN PAIN

But ONE DAY MY SCREAMING will TURN INTO REJOICING again

I’ll make it my responsibility to guard my heart from now on

LET NOT FEAR OF MEN TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE

because of one man's wrong

I WAS CUT DEEP But i come to you knowing you're able to heal, strengthen, restore.

P.S When we a re hurt we don't have to conceal nothing before God. He knows our thoughts so what will be the point. When we face things with Christ it’s possible to get over, forgive it all, he’ll help us, teach us how. To let go and move on and not punish every man for the mistake made by one, see they are only human.